I thought I'd lost my login info, but I am a good detective and found it again. I have had a hideous half-year and am only now getting my feet back under me. Misery and psychiatric medicines brought me up to an obscene weight this summer. I have to take the medication for now, but I can control my eating. I'm going to bed tonight full of gak and will awaken to CRON.
Amen.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Still still here
reading everyone's blogs and all that.
It's been a hard week. Still kind of ill. My bro is back home from the hospital. He has a heart issue. I wish the fam did not live so far away, so I could visit.
I've decided to give up drinking for a month or two for various reasons. We'll see how that goes. It will certainly keep the calories down!
Weight not going anywhere although I do seem to be getting a bit smaller. Boyfriend noticed that my pants were hanging lower. He's a little dubious about this CRON thing. I think when I stop getting sick every three weeks he'll understand.
Today was a weird day, lots of naps... Big bran muffin, some pineapple, some swiss cheese, big bowl of yogurt w/some granola, diet coke. I would like to eat something solid for dinner. I think I will just steam a bunch of kale. I need to enter all this stuff in the COM. It can be difficult to input some foods, like a random muffin from a bakery. So I do things like "Okay I just ate this bran muffin. Bran muffin, bran muffin, where's the bran muffin entry? What in hell is a toaster muffin? Oh well it says bran and raisin. This bran and raisin muffin was pretty big. I guess a toaster muffin is really small. Probably. Maybe I will put in 3.5 toaster muffins. *click* Oh wait, I gave boyfriend a big chunk of my muffin. 3 toaster muffins?"
It is also really easy to get slack about measuring things. I think I over-estimate a bit rather than underestimate but it's still not ideal. I'll be all groggy and just glop stuff together and then have to figure out what exactly I ate. It's not as satisfying eating that way as taking the time to make a nice small meal.
And I still don't like eggwhites.
But I am slowly getting better.
It's been a hard week. Still kind of ill. My bro is back home from the hospital. He has a heart issue. I wish the fam did not live so far away, so I could visit.
I've decided to give up drinking for a month or two for various reasons. We'll see how that goes. It will certainly keep the calories down!
Weight not going anywhere although I do seem to be getting a bit smaller. Boyfriend noticed that my pants were hanging lower. He's a little dubious about this CRON thing. I think when I stop getting sick every three weeks he'll understand.
Today was a weird day, lots of naps... Big bran muffin, some pineapple, some swiss cheese, big bowl of yogurt w/some granola, diet coke. I would like to eat something solid for dinner. I think I will just steam a bunch of kale. I need to enter all this stuff in the COM. It can be difficult to input some foods, like a random muffin from a bakery. So I do things like "Okay I just ate this bran muffin. Bran muffin, bran muffin, where's the bran muffin entry? What in hell is a toaster muffin? Oh well it says bran and raisin. This bran and raisin muffin was pretty big. I guess a toaster muffin is really small. Probably. Maybe I will put in 3.5 toaster muffins. *click* Oh wait, I gave boyfriend a big chunk of my muffin. 3 toaster muffins?"
It is also really easy to get slack about measuring things. I think I over-estimate a bit rather than underestimate but it's still not ideal. I'll be all groggy and just glop stuff together and then have to figure out what exactly I ate. It's not as satisfying eating that way as taking the time to make a nice small meal.
And I still don't like eggwhites.
But I am slowly getting better.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
I am back!
Okay, so I was sick all week and ate pretty crapily, but not as badly as I used to on a "good" day before CRON.
I love the CoM. It is very nifty, and it can squeeze nutrition out of the crappiest food I put into it.
There was ice cream and wheat thins and Pirate Booty.
Today has been calmer. Lots of herbal tea. Some diet coke. I'm going to have a big salad lunch as I slept in too late for breakfast. I have a huge bunch of kale at home for tonight.
My little brother (21) is very ill and in the hospital. Good thoughts, prayers, etc, appreciated.
I love the CoM. It is very nifty, and it can squeeze nutrition out of the crappiest food I put into it.
There was ice cream and wheat thins and Pirate Booty.
Today has been calmer. Lots of herbal tea. Some diet coke. I'm going to have a big salad lunch as I slept in too late for breakfast. I have a huge bunch of kale at home for tonight.
My little brother (21) is very ill and in the hospital. Good thoughts, prayers, etc, appreciated.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Fast. Ha. Ha ha. Ha.
Okay, so that didn't work.
I am not CoMing today. I am just out for the day. I am having a screwed up emotional time. I need to think about the interface of nutrition, CRON, mental illness and psych drugs. I'm a PTSD person and the past three days have been full of panic attacks and crying jags. I could really use some of that CRON zen.
I do not seem to be losing any weight, BUT.
I have these pants. They were my first "fat pants" and I lamented much over their buying. I lamented even more their passing, when I could no longer pull them over my butt.
AND now I can pull them up and button them. They are not very becoming, or comfortable, but THEY GO ON MY ASS.
So this is good. Not good:
Food:
About a handful of trail mix with cranberries, almonds and cashews.
2 cups of tea with milk and sugar.
5 little cookies of some kind of meringue type at church.
4 fig newtons (see church)
2 100 calorie pudding cups.
2 squares of dark chocolate.
Oh yeah, depression eating.
For dinner I think I will eat a 1/2 cup of brown rice with this tomato concoction with black beans and corn. I put the recipe into CoM and it's pretty good on nutrition and stuff but I'm too disgruntled to deal with it. Tomorrow I will try April's detox diet.
I am not CoMing today. I am just out for the day. I am having a screwed up emotional time. I need to think about the interface of nutrition, CRON, mental illness and psych drugs. I'm a PTSD person and the past three days have been full of panic attacks and crying jags. I could really use some of that CRON zen.
I do not seem to be losing any weight, BUT.
I have these pants. They were my first "fat pants" and I lamented much over their buying. I lamented even more their passing, when I could no longer pull them over my butt.
AND now I can pull them up and button them. They are not very becoming, or comfortable, but THEY GO ON MY ASS.
So this is good. Not good:
Food:
About a handful of trail mix with cranberries, almonds and cashews.
2 cups of tea with milk and sugar.
5 little cookies of some kind of meringue type at church.
4 fig newtons (see church)
2 100 calorie pudding cups.
2 squares of dark chocolate.
Oh yeah, depression eating.
For dinner I think I will eat a 1/2 cup of brown rice with this tomato concoction with black beans and corn. I put the recipe into CoM and it's pretty good on nutrition and stuff but I'm too disgruntled to deal with it. Tomorrow I will try April's detox diet.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
On the weekend my calories shall arrive in the form of booze.
So it shall be written, so it shall be done.
Okay, maybe not always.
This morning was a good CRON morning. I made a big breakfast for the 155 6'3 boyfriend of mine. (grr) and for myself made my effwhites (hahah that was a Freudian slip, I will let it slide.) with a tiny bit of lox and pepper and some yogurt. I do not love eggwhites. I think it is because I microwave them because otherwise they make a huge mess in the pan. In fact, eating an average of like 4 eggs or egg parts a day for protein is getting to be a little too much for me. But, power on.
So, for a change up, instead of nutrition report, here's what I ate, and calories, in roughly meal order:
Breakfast:
Egg Beaters 0.75 cup 90.0
Fish, salmon, chinook, smoked, (lox), regular 0.25 oz 8.3
Yogurt, fruit, low fat, 10 grams protein per 8 ounce 1 1/2 container (4 oz) 115.3
Snack 1
Yogurt, fruit, low fat, 10 grams protein per 8 ounce 1 1/2 container (4 oz) 115.3
Barbara shredded oats 0.25 Serving 80.6
Nuts, almonds 15 almond 104.0
(Boyfriend bought me a latte with sugar in it. Sweet of him, but argh, sugar!)
Milk, nonfat, fluid, without added vitamin A (fat free or skim) (in latte) 1 cup 85.8
Sugars, granulated 3 serving packet 32.5
Then we went to a friend's house for dinner and all hell broke loose. I ate the delicious sourdough bread! And the cheese! But I did say no to the ice cream!
Snack 2:
Cheese, low fat, cheddar or colby 2 oz 98.1
Bread, wheat, toasted 2 slice 150.2
Grapes, american type (slip skin), raw 30 grape 48.2
Dinner:
Soup, chicken broth or bouillon, dehydrated, prepared with water 1 cup (8 fl oz) 22.0
Quinoa 0.25 cup 159.0
Carrots, raw 1 large (7-1/4" to 8-/1/2" long) 29.5
Sweet potato, cooked, baked in skin, without salt 1 cup 180.0
Tiny bit of tofu, like 1 tbsp? No idea how many calories.
Alcoholic Beverage, wine, table, red, Syrah 2 serving 5 fl oz 247.0
Alcoholic beverage, beer, regular, all 12 fl oz 153.3
For a grand total of way too many fucking calories. (1732.9) Sigh.
I think I may fast tomorrow to detox a bit and even out my averages.
Okay, maybe not always.
This morning was a good CRON morning. I made a big breakfast for the 155 6'3 boyfriend of mine. (grr) and for myself made my effwhites (hahah that was a Freudian slip, I will let it slide.) with a tiny bit of lox and pepper and some yogurt. I do not love eggwhites. I think it is because I microwave them because otherwise they make a huge mess in the pan. In fact, eating an average of like 4 eggs or egg parts a day for protein is getting to be a little too much for me. But, power on.
So, for a change up, instead of nutrition report, here's what I ate, and calories, in roughly meal order:
Breakfast:
Egg Beaters 0.75 cup 90.0
Fish, salmon, chinook, smoked, (lox), regular 0.25 oz 8.3
Yogurt, fruit, low fat, 10 grams protein per 8 ounce 1 1/2 container (4 oz) 115.3
Snack 1
Yogurt, fruit, low fat, 10 grams protein per 8 ounce 1 1/2 container (4 oz) 115.3
Barbara shredded oats 0.25 Serving 80.6
Nuts, almonds 15 almond 104.0
(Boyfriend bought me a latte with sugar in it. Sweet of him, but argh, sugar!)
Milk, nonfat, fluid, without added vitamin A (fat free or skim) (in latte) 1 cup 85.8
Sugars, granulated 3 serving packet 32.5
Then we went to a friend's house for dinner and all hell broke loose. I ate the delicious sourdough bread! And the cheese! But I did say no to the ice cream!
Snack 2:
Cheese, low fat, cheddar or colby 2 oz 98.1
Bread, wheat, toasted 2 slice 150.2
Grapes, american type (slip skin), raw 30 grape 48.2
Dinner:
Soup, chicken broth or bouillon, dehydrated, prepared with water 1 cup (8 fl oz) 22.0
Quinoa 0.25 cup 159.0
Carrots, raw 1 large (7-1/4" to 8-/1/2" long) 29.5
Sweet potato, cooked, baked in skin, without salt 1 cup 180.0
Tiny bit of tofu, like 1 tbsp? No idea how many calories.
Alcoholic Beverage, wine, table, red, Syrah 2 serving 5 fl oz 247.0
Alcoholic beverage, beer, regular, all 12 fl oz 153.3
For a grand total of way too many fucking calories. (1732.9) Sigh.
I think I may fast tomorrow to detox a bit and even out my averages.
Friday, March 23, 2007
Low
I'm kind of having a terrible week. I am waiting anxiously for some important news that will decide my fate in for the next umpteen years and I'm going through a psych meds change and today I am feeling so sad for no apparent reason that eating has been a chore. I succumbed to carby cereal in the morning because I really wanted it, for about 220 calories. I had 1.4 cup 2% milk with. Then I ate a little low-fat yogurt, and then a 100 calorie pudding cup.
Then I had a skim latte and because I friend was taking me out for coffee, I had a few bites of rice crispy treat.
So I think I am at about 800 with crap nutrition and I just don't have it in me to eat anymore.
Maybe it will make up for previous high days and it will all even out. If I don't drink or eat anything else tonight, my 5 day general averages will be:
General (92%)
Energy 1402.6 kcal 108%
Protein 69.4 g 71%
Carbs 176.2 g 114%
Fiber 26.0 g 104%
Fat 42.5 g 99%
Water 2229.4 g 83%
And over 100 in most nutrients. Slackers:
B1 89%
B3 80%
D 7%
E 61 %
Iron 60%
Potassium 77 %
Saturated fat 47%
Omega 6 57% (vs 148 % O3)
Cholesterol: 72%
Not shabby for my first 5 days of official CRON, I think. Although I think I see some beer or wine in my future this evening.
PS: I ended up making my precious haddock for a starving non CR boyfriend. I made a honey-lemon almond glaze and cooked the fish up in that. I just tasted it, so I don't know how many calories it was, but HOLY FLYING CROW it was tasty. I also had some gin and a beer. It's been one of those nights. I'm still way under target, though. I just wish I could stop feeling so damn bad.
Then I had a skim latte and because I friend was taking me out for coffee, I had a few bites of rice crispy treat.
So I think I am at about 800 with crap nutrition and I just don't have it in me to eat anymore.
Maybe it will make up for previous high days and it will all even out. If I don't drink or eat anything else tonight, my 5 day general averages will be:
General (92%)
Energy 1402.6 kcal 108%
Protein 69.4 g 71%
Carbs 176.2 g 114%
Fiber 26.0 g 104%
Fat 42.5 g 99%
Water 2229.4 g 83%
And over 100 in most nutrients. Slackers:
B1 89%
B3 80%
D 7%
E 61 %
Iron 60%
Potassium 77 %
Saturated fat 47%
Omega 6 57% (vs 148 % O3)
Cholesterol: 72%
Not shabby for my first 5 days of official CRON, I think. Although I think I see some beer or wine in my future this evening.
PS: I ended up making my precious haddock for a starving non CR boyfriend. I made a honey-lemon almond glaze and cooked the fish up in that. I just tasted it, so I don't know how many calories it was, but HOLY FLYING CROW it was tasty. I also had some gin and a beer. It's been one of those nights. I'm still way under target, though. I just wish I could stop feeling so damn bad.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Delicious Beer
I don't think I had that good of a day. I started off strong with a cup of egg whites and 2 oz of of smoked salmon. Lots of good protein and fat. I wasn't feeling that well, so I ended up calling in to work and sleeping. I ate an apple, a small low-fat yogurt, and went back to sleep again. Around 2pm, a roommate came home. She was having a crisis, and I made her some yuck Swiss Miss hot chocolate to calm her down. Of course I ended up drinking a cup myself. Blah. 120 calories of fake chocolate. Blah.
Later in the afternoon I got a small skim latte again, the only way I'll get skim milk down me. And I asked for just one squirt of sugar-free vanilla and it worked! Thanks for the tip, E!
So whatever, no big deal, journey on.
Dinner was a big salad.
100 g kale
85 g carrots
3 tbsp hummus
1/2 avocado
1 smashed small baked sweet potato
lemon juice
1 oz low-fat cheddar cheese.
I know that sounds weird, but it was what I had around to aim for RDAs for. For some reason I found the raw kale harder to get down today, but I did get it down.
I could have ended the day at 1200, actually, and not been hungry, but then the beer attacked me. And I drank lots of it. So the day ends:
General (86%)
Energy 1545.2 kcal 119%
Protein 71.4 g 73%
Carbs 195.9 g 126%
Fiber 20.7 g 83%
Fat 26.4 g 61%
Water 3016.5 g 112%
Vitamins (82%)
Vitamin A 44995.9 IU 1929%
Folate 301.9 µg 75%
B1 (Thiamine) 1.0 mg 88%
B2 (Riboflavin) 2.1 mg 195%
B3 (Niacin) 13.3 mg 95%
B5 (Pantothenic Acid) 11.5 mg 229%
B6 (Pyridoxine) 1.8 mg 139%
B12 (Cyanocobalamin) 4.4 µg 183%
Vitamin C 179.1 mg 239%
Vitamin D 0.0 IU 0%
Vitamin E 3.2 mg 21%
Vitamin K 847.9 µg 942%
Minerals (94%)
Calcium 1054.1 mg 105%
Copper 1.4 mg 159%
Iron 12.2 mg 68%
Magnesium 282.6 mg 91%
Manganese 2.5 mg 136%
Phosphorus 1319.3 mg 188%
Potassium 3702.4 mg 79%
Selenium 104.9 µg 191%
Sodium 2547.6 mg 170%
Zinc 8.4 mg 105%
Lipids (33%)
Saturated 8.1 g 40%
Omega-3 0.7 g 64%
Omega-6 1.8 g 17%
Cholesterol 28.4 mg 9%
I don't know why I am feeling depressed about today. I know April counseled me not to go much under 1650, and even with my beer and chocolate badness I am still under that, and my nutrients aren't even all that bad. Are all those numbers up there boring? I don't think I will post them forever. Just while I am learning. It is hard for me to accept 1545 calories as "restricted." I really do not know how many calories I was consuming before. I assume more, as I was eating mac&cheese and heaping servings of chinese food and 3 slices of pizza on a regular basis.
I am SO broken out all over my face right now. It's a little frightening.
Reading April's early blog is heartening in many ways, watching her learn and grow like I hope to do.
But I also feel imprisioned in this big fat body and long for the lightness and energy other CR practitioners speak of. I feel like a whale among butterflies.
Time, Time, Time.
Later in the afternoon I got a small skim latte again, the only way I'll get skim milk down me. And I asked for just one squirt of sugar-free vanilla and it worked! Thanks for the tip, E!
So whatever, no big deal, journey on.
Dinner was a big salad.
100 g kale
85 g carrots
3 tbsp hummus
1/2 avocado
1 smashed small baked sweet potato
lemon juice
1 oz low-fat cheddar cheese.
I know that sounds weird, but it was what I had around to aim for RDAs for. For some reason I found the raw kale harder to get down today, but I did get it down.
I could have ended the day at 1200, actually, and not been hungry, but then the beer attacked me. And I drank lots of it. So the day ends:
General (86%)
Energy 1545.2 kcal 119%
Protein 71.4 g 73%
Carbs 195.9 g 126%
Fiber 20.7 g 83%
Fat 26.4 g 61%
Water 3016.5 g 112%
Vitamins (82%)
Vitamin A 44995.9 IU 1929%
Folate 301.9 µg 75%
B1 (Thiamine) 1.0 mg 88%
B2 (Riboflavin) 2.1 mg 195%
B3 (Niacin) 13.3 mg 95%
B5 (Pantothenic Acid) 11.5 mg 229%
B6 (Pyridoxine) 1.8 mg 139%
B12 (Cyanocobalamin) 4.4 µg 183%
Vitamin C 179.1 mg 239%
Vitamin D 0.0 IU 0%
Vitamin E 3.2 mg 21%
Vitamin K 847.9 µg 942%
Minerals (94%)
Calcium 1054.1 mg 105%
Copper 1.4 mg 159%
Iron 12.2 mg 68%
Magnesium 282.6 mg 91%
Manganese 2.5 mg 136%
Phosphorus 1319.3 mg 188%
Potassium 3702.4 mg 79%
Selenium 104.9 µg 191%
Sodium 2547.6 mg 170%
Zinc 8.4 mg 105%
Lipids (33%)
Saturated 8.1 g 40%
Omega-3 0.7 g 64%
Omega-6 1.8 g 17%
Cholesterol 28.4 mg 9%
I don't know why I am feeling depressed about today. I know April counseled me not to go much under 1650, and even with my beer and chocolate badness I am still under that, and my nutrients aren't even all that bad. Are all those numbers up there boring? I don't think I will post them forever. Just while I am learning. It is hard for me to accept 1545 calories as "restricted." I really do not know how many calories I was consuming before. I assume more, as I was eating mac&cheese and heaping servings of chinese food and 3 slices of pizza on a regular basis.
I am SO broken out all over my face right now. It's a little frightening.
Reading April's early blog is heartening in many ways, watching her learn and grow like I hope to do.
But I also feel imprisioned in this big fat body and long for the lightness and energy other CR practitioners speak of. I feel like a whale among butterflies.
Time, Time, Time.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Free Champagne!
So I probably have to add a couple hundred calories to my total for the two glasses I consumed this afternoon. I can turn down free sweets, but not free Brut.
Altogether, not a bad day. Finished off my fat-free vanilla yogurt this morning, sprinkled with the oh so tasty oh so calorie-expensive granola w/almonds. Small skim latte with sugar-free vanilla (I wish I could make them put less in, it's SOO sweet. I need some sweet in my coffee, just not that much) on the way to work.
Lunch was packed (I think this is a record for me, a whole week of packed lunch) Two hard-boiled eggs, celery and hummus, cherry tomatoes, apple for dessert.
Vat of honey vanilla chamomile tea, per usual, with honey.
I forgot to stop by the grocery store on my way back from work and now I'm stuck on desk duty here. (long story) I had to re-think my planned dinner since I had no egg whites and no kale or spinach. I steamed 340 g of frozen broccoli and since I was low on fats I added a pat of butter for a treats. Mmmm. Butter. I also made a bizarre concoction of tuna, red onion, celery, mushrooms, all chopped up with 1 tbsp mayo and a little squirt of mustard. I know mayo sucks, but it's all I had in the house. It is interesting and pretty tasty, I think.
I still have an budgeted orange left to eat, later. But here's the crunch, minus tasty champagne:
General (96%)
Energy 1364.8 kcal 105% (plus 200 champagne=1564.8)
Protein 76.0 g 78%
Carbs 176.0 g 114%
Fiber 29.7 g 119%
Fat 44.1 g 103%
Water 2606.0 g 97%
Vitamins (90%)
Vitamin A 7372.2 IU 316%
Folate 554.5 µg 139%
B1 (Thiamine) 1.1 mg 97%
B2 (Riboflavin) 2.4 mg 220%
B3 (Niacin) 13.0 mg 93%
B5 (Pantothenic Acid) 6.1 mg 122%
B6 (Pyridoxine) 1.7 mg 130%
B12 (Cyanocobalamin) 4.3 µg 178%
Vitamin C 335.8 mg 448%
Vitamin D 20.4 IU 10%
Vitamin E 12.2 mg 81%
Vitamin K 420.0 µg 467%
Minerals (94%)
Calcium 1196.6 mg 120%
Copper 1.3 mg 143%
Iron 9.9 mg 55%
Magnesium 328.5 mg 106%
Manganese 3.3 mg 185%
Phosphorus 1470.3 mg 210%
Potassium 3995.9 mg 85%
Selenium 131.4 µg 239%
Sodium 1439.7 mg 96%
Zinc 9.2 mg 114%
Lipids (85%)
Saturated 14.5 g 72%
Omega-3 1.8 g 166%
Omega-6 7.3 g 66%
Cholesterol 503.9 mg 168%
I am not hungry at all, and I am not losing weight. I am wondering if I should cut something. It's just harder to get the protein without the calories. EGG WHITES EGG WHITES. I know. Coming soon to a stomach near you.
La la la.
PS. The other day I was in the grocery store and that old song from the 90's came on and I only heard one verse, as I was rummaging through the veggies:
"You know the road that they walk on is paved in gold
It's always sunny, they'll never get cold
They'll never get hungry,
Never get old and grey!"
And I thought of CR. I may get hungry and cold sometimes...but otherwise, :)
Altogether, not a bad day. Finished off my fat-free vanilla yogurt this morning, sprinkled with the oh so tasty oh so calorie-expensive granola w/almonds. Small skim latte with sugar-free vanilla (I wish I could make them put less in, it's SOO sweet. I need some sweet in my coffee, just not that much) on the way to work.
Lunch was packed (I think this is a record for me, a whole week of packed lunch) Two hard-boiled eggs, celery and hummus, cherry tomatoes, apple for dessert.
Vat of honey vanilla chamomile tea, per usual, with honey.
I forgot to stop by the grocery store on my way back from work and now I'm stuck on desk duty here. (long story) I had to re-think my planned dinner since I had no egg whites and no kale or spinach. I steamed 340 g of frozen broccoli and since I was low on fats I added a pat of butter for a treats. Mmmm. Butter. I also made a bizarre concoction of tuna, red onion, celery, mushrooms, all chopped up with 1 tbsp mayo and a little squirt of mustard. I know mayo sucks, but it's all I had in the house. It is interesting and pretty tasty, I think.
I still have an budgeted orange left to eat, later. But here's the crunch, minus tasty champagne:
General (96%)
Energy 1364.8 kcal 105% (plus 200 champagne=1564.8)
Protein 76.0 g 78%
Carbs 176.0 g 114%
Fiber 29.7 g 119%
Fat 44.1 g 103%
Water 2606.0 g 97%
Vitamins (90%)
Vitamin A 7372.2 IU 316%
Folate 554.5 µg 139%
B1 (Thiamine) 1.1 mg 97%
B2 (Riboflavin) 2.4 mg 220%
B3 (Niacin) 13.0 mg 93%
B5 (Pantothenic Acid) 6.1 mg 122%
B6 (Pyridoxine) 1.7 mg 130%
B12 (Cyanocobalamin) 4.3 µg 178%
Vitamin C 335.8 mg 448%
Vitamin D 20.4 IU 10%
Vitamin E 12.2 mg 81%
Vitamin K 420.0 µg 467%
Minerals (94%)
Calcium 1196.6 mg 120%
Copper 1.3 mg 143%
Iron 9.9 mg 55%
Magnesium 328.5 mg 106%
Manganese 3.3 mg 185%
Phosphorus 1470.3 mg 210%
Potassium 3995.9 mg 85%
Selenium 131.4 µg 239%
Sodium 1439.7 mg 96%
Zinc 9.2 mg 114%
Lipids (85%)
Saturated 14.5 g 72%
Omega-3 1.8 g 166%
Omega-6 7.3 g 66%
Cholesterol 503.9 mg 168%
I am not hungry at all, and I am not losing weight. I am wondering if I should cut something. It's just harder to get the protein without the calories. EGG WHITES EGG WHITES. I know. Coming soon to a stomach near you.
La la la.
PS. The other day I was in the grocery store and that old song from the 90's came on and I only heard one verse, as I was rummaging through the veggies:
"You know the road that they walk on is paved in gold
It's always sunny, they'll never get cold
They'll never get hungry,
Never get old and grey!"
And I thought of CR. I may get hungry and cold sometimes...but otherwise, :)
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
CALORIES EVERYWHERE.
Okay guys, get this. Last night I was walking home from school and happened to look up at the marquee of the local movie theatre. I thought: "I wonder how many calories are in Pan's Labyrinth?"
Uh.
So! Today, planned out in advance, went pretty well! First of all, I woke up, by myself, at 7am! This might not sound like much, but I am a seriously fatigued person. I will go to bed at 11 and wake up at 11 (with an alarm) and feel like shit for the rest of the day, longing to go back to bed. I didn't get OUT of bed at 7, but I was pleasantly alert and I did some homework in bed and then took a little nap. And then got out of bed for real at 10am. I know it doesn't sound like much, but for me, it's big. I did have a little crash in the middle of the afternoon. I don't have egg whites at my house right now (left them at the boyfriend's--it's hard to CR between two households!) so my "protein" breakfast was:
1 cup nonfat vanilla yogurt
2 tbsp high protein almond granola sprinkled on top
32 oz herbal tea
1 tbsp honey
Then lunch was a big old salad
3 cups of spinach
0.5 cup mushrooms (plain old white kind)
2 tbsp sunflower seeds
1 cup chickpeas
2.8 oz tuna
and a huge splash of balsamic. It turned out to be more than I needed but I am not used to dressing such huge salads and I was afraid of having to choke down lots of dry spinach.
I ended up having an unscheduled snack of a fat-free latte with sugar-free vanilla syrup and a tiny dark chocolate truffle. I have no idea how many calories there. I just counted the milk in CoM but I had some calorie room for playing and it felt good to sip and nibble over a new book. And the skim brought my protein up, too!
Dinner was
5 celery sticks
150 g broccoli (that's a lot more broccoli than you'd think. I'm glad I weighed it because I'd estimated the amount as more than double the weight)
170g baby carrots
7 tbsp hummus
1 whole boiled egg
Ta da!:
General (97%)
Energy 1544.3 kcal 119% (maybe + 70 for chocolate? So, 1614.3?)
Protein 96.9 g 99%
Carbs 209.4 g 135%
Fiber 32.6 g 131%
Fat 39.9 g 93%
Water 2454.4 g 91%
Vitamins (89%)
Vitamin A 33912.1 IU 1454%
Folate 730.8 µg 183%
B1 (Thiamine) 1.1 mg 98%
B2 (Riboflavin) 2.4 mg 218%
B3 (Niacin) 12.4 mg 89%
B5 (Pantothenic Acid) 7.2 mg 144%
B6 (Pyridoxine) 2.8 mg 215%
B12 (Cyanocobalamin) 4.7 µg 196%
Vitamin C 183.1 mg 244%
Vitamin D 6.3 IU 3%
Vitamin E 12.5 mg 83%
Vitamin K 634.9 µg 705%
Minerals (98%)
Calcium 1554.5 mg 155%
Copper 2.2 mg 245%
Iron 15.6 mg 87%
Magnesium 485.0 mg 156%
Manganese 5.5 mg 306%
Phosphorus 2121.6 mg 303%
Potassium 4331.4 mg 92%
Selenium 137.4 µg 250%
Sodium 2447.8 mg 163%
Zinc 13.4 mg 167%
Lipids (80%)
Saturated 8.1 g 40%
Omega-3 1.2 g 111%
Omega-6 9.8 g 89%
Cholesterol 268.4 mg 89%
I think that was pretty good for a newbie effort! After all, this is my first week of real tracking. From what I see on other people's blogs, it seems pretty normal to go way high on the A and K. What about these guys? Manganese 5.5 mg 306% Phosphorus 2121.6 mg 303% Are those okay?
I am already resisting the urge to go lower. I need a couple of weeks to see if I am losing weight, and if so, how fast. My new scale arrived (I'd been using the sweet lying one at my BF's house) and it looks like I've lost 4 lbs, not 10, which makes more sense but is still a little sad. I have about 60 to lose if I'm ever going to get below set-point. Anyway, it will take time, and I know I have to go s-l-o-w.
I have decided to try to be nice to my fat while it's here. I've been squirming in my skin for months, staring at my rounded belly and breasts and hips, grabbing and pinching and sighing. But the fat is soft and smooth and if I do things right, I won't have it for long. This is not to say I'll miss it. I absolutely will not. But instead of straining towards that long lean lovely me that I know will show up one day if I keep it up, maybe I'll try to like my body as it goes through the stages.
I don't know if it's possible. It seems like a radical idea. And I am still kind of grossed out when I have to button my buddah belly into size 14 jeans. (How did I ever get here?) But maybe it's an experiment.
Uh.
So! Today, planned out in advance, went pretty well! First of all, I woke up, by myself, at 7am! This might not sound like much, but I am a seriously fatigued person. I will go to bed at 11 and wake up at 11 (with an alarm) and feel like shit for the rest of the day, longing to go back to bed. I didn't get OUT of bed at 7, but I was pleasantly alert and I did some homework in bed and then took a little nap. And then got out of bed for real at 10am. I know it doesn't sound like much, but for me, it's big. I did have a little crash in the middle of the afternoon. I don't have egg whites at my house right now (left them at the boyfriend's--it's hard to CR between two households!) so my "protein" breakfast was:
1 cup nonfat vanilla yogurt
2 tbsp high protein almond granola sprinkled on top
32 oz herbal tea
1 tbsp honey
Then lunch was a big old salad
3 cups of spinach
0.5 cup mushrooms (plain old white kind)
2 tbsp sunflower seeds
1 cup chickpeas
2.8 oz tuna
and a huge splash of balsamic. It turned out to be more than I needed but I am not used to dressing such huge salads and I was afraid of having to choke down lots of dry spinach.
I ended up having an unscheduled snack of a fat-free latte with sugar-free vanilla syrup and a tiny dark chocolate truffle. I have no idea how many calories there. I just counted the milk in CoM but I had some calorie room for playing and it felt good to sip and nibble over a new book. And the skim brought my protein up, too!
Dinner was
5 celery sticks
150 g broccoli (that's a lot more broccoli than you'd think. I'm glad I weighed it because I'd estimated the amount as more than double the weight)
170g baby carrots
7 tbsp hummus
1 whole boiled egg
Ta da!:
General (97%)
Energy 1544.3 kcal 119% (maybe + 70 for chocolate? So, 1614.3?)
Protein 96.9 g 99%
Carbs 209.4 g 135%
Fiber 32.6 g 131%
Fat 39.9 g 93%
Water 2454.4 g 91%
Vitamins (89%)
Vitamin A 33912.1 IU 1454%
Folate 730.8 µg 183%
B1 (Thiamine) 1.1 mg 98%
B2 (Riboflavin) 2.4 mg 218%
B3 (Niacin) 12.4 mg 89%
B5 (Pantothenic Acid) 7.2 mg 144%
B6 (Pyridoxine) 2.8 mg 215%
B12 (Cyanocobalamin) 4.7 µg 196%
Vitamin C 183.1 mg 244%
Vitamin D 6.3 IU 3%
Vitamin E 12.5 mg 83%
Vitamin K 634.9 µg 705%
Minerals (98%)
Calcium 1554.5 mg 155%
Copper 2.2 mg 245%
Iron 15.6 mg 87%
Magnesium 485.0 mg 156%
Manganese 5.5 mg 306%
Phosphorus 2121.6 mg 303%
Potassium 4331.4 mg 92%
Selenium 137.4 µg 250%
Sodium 2447.8 mg 163%
Zinc 13.4 mg 167%
Lipids (80%)
Saturated 8.1 g 40%
Omega-3 1.2 g 111%
Omega-6 9.8 g 89%
Cholesterol 268.4 mg 89%
I think that was pretty good for a newbie effort! After all, this is my first week of real tracking. From what I see on other people's blogs, it seems pretty normal to go way high on the A and K. What about these guys? Manganese 5.5 mg 306% Phosphorus 2121.6 mg 303% Are those okay?
I am already resisting the urge to go lower. I need a couple of weeks to see if I am losing weight, and if so, how fast. My new scale arrived (I'd been using the sweet lying one at my BF's house) and it looks like I've lost 4 lbs, not 10, which makes more sense but is still a little sad. I have about 60 to lose if I'm ever going to get below set-point. Anyway, it will take time, and I know I have to go s-l-o-w.
I have decided to try to be nice to my fat while it's here. I've been squirming in my skin for months, staring at my rounded belly and breasts and hips, grabbing and pinching and sighing. But the fat is soft and smooth and if I do things right, I won't have it for long. This is not to say I'll miss it. I absolutely will not. But instead of straining towards that long lean lovely me that I know will show up one day if I keep it up, maybe I'll try to like my body as it goes through the stages.
I don't know if it's possible. It seems like a radical idea. And I am still kind of grossed out when I have to button my buddah belly into size 14 jeans. (How did I ever get here?) But maybe it's an experiment.
Monday, March 19, 2007
Grrr
Dumb blogger ate my post.
I was posting to say that starting the day with some concentrated protein, as April suggested, served me well. I was able to pass up chocolate mousse cake at the office (someone's birthday) with hardly a pang.
I am also going to post my comment to my last post so everyone can see it:
"Thanks everyone!
I did end up eating some candy, 1 slice of pizza and some grapes, almonds, and red wine. I stayed within my calorie target but of course my nutrition was shot to hell. But I love how each day is a new start. :)
It is so encouraging to get all of these great comments from everyone. What a wonderful, supportive community. I feel like I am leaping over the learning curve a lot, with so much great help."
I also appear to have lost 10lbs in the last week, which seems kind of impossible. I am not THAT restricted. But I think I am starting my period again after switching from depo shots to an IUD. Maybe I'm shedding a bunch of water and bloat that way.
Onto business!
My breakfast was
3 tbsp egg whites scrampled and plopped over
250 grams of steamed brussels sprouts
followed shortly by 200 g of apple.
But I messed up a bit with lunch and am now in a dinner quandary. I made a lunch salad of
200 g raw kale
1.9 oz tuna
1/4 cup leftover cous cous
1/8 cup flaxmeal
145 g advocado
2 tbsp olive oil
which of course shot me way over my fat target. It all seemed healthy as I was tossing it together but now I realize that I didn't need the olive oil AND the advocado AND the flax.
I am only at 1160 calories as close as I can figure it and now I don't know what to do for dinner. I had packed another 250 g of br. sprouts, some almonds, a hardboiled egg, a small amount of grapes (like, 10. That was the end of my grapes) and some low-fat blueberry yogurt for dinner. Now I see that I should't eat any of that other than the br. sprouts and grapes. Maybe I should go to the grocery salad bar and get a whole bunch of spinach and eat that with balsamic vinegar?
Suggestions?
PS: For you CR Lost fans out there I have a banner quote from an ironic source:
"Let's look Death in the face and say 'Whatever, dude.'"
~Hurley
PPS: okay, I CoMed everything, including the yogurt, almonds, boiled egg, grapes and extra sprouts. Here's what I got. Oh man.
Nutrition Summary for March 19, 2007
General (85%)
Energy
1536.4 kcal 118%
Protein 68.2 g 70%
Carbs 144.4 g 93%
Fiber 40.4 g 162%
Fat 88.1 g 205%
Water 1197.6 g 44%
Vitamins (91%)
Vitamin A 35874.9 IU 1538%
Folate 660.6 µg 165%
B1 (Thiamine) 1.2 mg 113%
B2 (Riboflavin) 1.8 mg 165%
B3 (Niacin) 14.4 mg 103%
B5 (Pantothenic Acid) 6.8 mg 137%
B6 (Pyridoxine) 2.6 mg 202%
B12 (Cyanocobalamin) 2.2 µg 92%
Vitamin C 554.6 mg 739%
Vitamin D 0.0 IU 0%
Vitamin E 17.6 mg 117%
Vitamin K 2534.3 µg 2816%
Minerals (87%)
Calcium
761.4 mg 76%
Copper 1.6 mg 182%
Iron 12.8 mg 71%
Magnesium 353.3 mg 114%
Manganese 3.9 mg 215%
Phosphorus 1096.7 mg 157%
Potassium 4311.7 mg 92%
Selenium 106.9 µg 194%
Sodium 724.6 mg 48%
Zinc 6.8 mg 85%
Lipids (87%)
Saturated 13.5 g 67%
Omega-3 4.2 g 385%
Omega-6 10.6 g 96%
Cholesterol 252.2 mg 84%
Yeesh. Anyone know how to make this info go into blogger neatly?
I guess for a lot of protein without a lot a fat I need to eat a lot more eggwhites? Anyone see any easy fixes in there? What should I have done differently? When I added in my herbal tea with honey and my coffee with milk and sugar I hit 1659 calories.
I was posting to say that starting the day with some concentrated protein, as April suggested, served me well. I was able to pass up chocolate mousse cake at the office (someone's birthday) with hardly a pang.
I am also going to post my comment to my last post so everyone can see it:
"Thanks everyone!
I did end up eating some candy, 1 slice of pizza and some grapes, almonds, and red wine. I stayed within my calorie target but of course my nutrition was shot to hell. But I love how each day is a new start. :)
It is so encouraging to get all of these great comments from everyone. What a wonderful, supportive community. I feel like I am leaping over the learning curve a lot, with so much great help."
I also appear to have lost 10lbs in the last week, which seems kind of impossible. I am not THAT restricted. But I think I am starting my period again after switching from depo shots to an IUD. Maybe I'm shedding a bunch of water and bloat that way.
Onto business!
My breakfast was
3 tbsp egg whites scrampled and plopped over
250 grams of steamed brussels sprouts
followed shortly by 200 g of apple.
But I messed up a bit with lunch and am now in a dinner quandary. I made a lunch salad of
200 g raw kale
1.9 oz tuna
1/4 cup leftover cous cous
1/8 cup flaxmeal
145 g advocado
2 tbsp olive oil
which of course shot me way over my fat target. It all seemed healthy as I was tossing it together but now I realize that I didn't need the olive oil AND the advocado AND the flax.
I am only at 1160 calories as close as I can figure it and now I don't know what to do for dinner. I had packed another 250 g of br. sprouts, some almonds, a hardboiled egg, a small amount of grapes (like, 10. That was the end of my grapes) and some low-fat blueberry yogurt for dinner. Now I see that I should't eat any of that other than the br. sprouts and grapes. Maybe I should go to the grocery salad bar and get a whole bunch of spinach and eat that with balsamic vinegar?
Suggestions?
PS: For you CR Lost fans out there I have a banner quote from an ironic source:
"Let's look Death in the face and say 'Whatever, dude.'"
~Hurley
PPS: okay, I CoMed everything, including the yogurt, almonds, boiled egg, grapes and extra sprouts. Here's what I got. Oh man.
Nutrition Summary for March 19, 2007
General (85%)
Energy
1536.4 kcal 118%
Protein 68.2 g 70%
Carbs 144.4 g 93%
Fiber 40.4 g 162%
Fat 88.1 g 205%
Water 1197.6 g 44%
Vitamins (91%)
Vitamin A 35874.9 IU 1538%
Folate 660.6 µg 165%
B1 (Thiamine) 1.2 mg 113%
B2 (Riboflavin) 1.8 mg 165%
B3 (Niacin) 14.4 mg 103%
B5 (Pantothenic Acid) 6.8 mg 137%
B6 (Pyridoxine) 2.6 mg 202%
B12 (Cyanocobalamin) 2.2 µg 92%
Vitamin C 554.6 mg 739%
Vitamin D 0.0 IU 0%
Vitamin E 17.6 mg 117%
Vitamin K 2534.3 µg 2816%
Minerals (87%)
Calcium
761.4 mg 76%
Copper 1.6 mg 182%
Iron 12.8 mg 71%
Magnesium 353.3 mg 114%
Manganese 3.9 mg 215%
Phosphorus 1096.7 mg 157%
Potassium 4311.7 mg 92%
Selenium 106.9 µg 194%
Sodium 724.6 mg 48%
Zinc 6.8 mg 85%
Lipids (87%)
Saturated 13.5 g 67%
Omega-3 4.2 g 385%
Omega-6 10.6 g 96%
Cholesterol 252.2 mg 84%
Yeesh. Anyone know how to make this info go into blogger neatly?
I guess for a lot of protein without a lot a fat I need to eat a lot more eggwhites? Anyone see any easy fixes in there? What should I have done differently? When I added in my herbal tea with honey and my coffee with milk and sugar I hit 1659 calories.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Well.
So, last night I drank more port than I should have (2.5 medium size glasses) but it was very nice. But THEN I got the munchies and ate two of those 100 calorie pudding snacks. Bah.
Anyway, today is a new day.
I'm eating 10 strawberries
5 almonds
1 cup fat-free vanilla yogurt
.25 cup of yogurt.
That should last me through the morning, then I'll have the other half of that bake.
Tonight is dinner at a friend's house, so I'm going to have to be careful.
Thanks so much for the comments and the welcome! I did download CoM, but I am still figuring out how it works.
Anyway, today is a new day.
I'm eating 10 strawberries
5 almonds
1 cup fat-free vanilla yogurt
.25 cup of yogurt.
That should last me through the morning, then I'll have the other half of that bake.
Tonight is dinner at a friend's house, so I'm going to have to be careful.
Thanks so much for the comments and the welcome! I did download CoM, but I am still figuring out how it works.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Whoopdee!
New blog!
Well for starters, I'm a 24 year old, 5'9, (well, 5'8.75, but that sounds dumb) 180 lb woman. I've been interested in CRON for months, lurking on blogs and reading articles, but have finally gotten up the courage to plunge in. The first step was signing up for www.sparkpeople.com, which introduced me to the reality of counting calories. Before depression and the weight-causing drugs, and before hormonal birth control, I could eat any and all I wanted and hang around 130 lbs, so I am guessing that's about my set-point. A few weeks ago I stepped on the scale at the Dr's office and saw a number I had never seen before. Until recently, my highest weight ever had been in the 160's. But over the past year, with the aforementioned drugs, I have slowly and steadily put on over 40 lbs, with no sign of an upper-limit plateau, and I was terrified. To make things worse, I am ALWAYS sick. Always the first one down, always the last to recover. Migraines, chronic sinus problems, flus, colds, stomach viruses. You name it, I've probably had it a dozen times. And I'm SO TIRED ALL THE TIME. It's terrible. I can sleep for 12 hours and wake up hardly able to drag myself out of bed.
I decided that it had to stop. I signed up for sparkpeople, and it gives me a calorie range of 1200-1550. I'm still going over that by a bit, averaging around 1650 a day over the course of the last week. But I've already made some huge changes. I am mostly vegetarian, though I will eat seafood, and I was suffering from fat-vegetarian syndrome. Pasta and cheese, bread and cheese, cous-cous and cheese...I was actually getting a good percentage of fat, but my carbs were sky-high and my protein VERY low. So now I am eating much better...lots of green things, a fair amount of dairy and tuna and almonds, etc. But it's hard to figure out how MUCH I should be eating. I am very tall, but I have a lot of fat to burn. I'm not sure about the life-extension stuff. I just want to feel better, and lose this weight without yo-yo dieting.
I am taking this slow, because I'm a little scared of it. It seems impossible that I could really lose all this weight and not be exhausted and hungry all the time. I'm frightened of becoming obsessive and lapsing into bad eating-disordered habits of the past. I'm afraid that it will ruin my metabolism and I'll end up having to eat only 800 cals a day just to avoid weight gain. Most of all I'm scared that it won't work. I'm worried about a lot of things, but all the blogs give me hope. You can't all be wrong! You all sound so together and happy and fit.
SO.
I bought a food scale today. Had a minor panic-attack at the store, but walked out with it anyhow. I am not ready for the CRON-o-meter though I know it is just a matter of time. Sparkpeople gives me a general breakdown of my most important nutrients. I'm certainly not at 100% but I am edging closer as I figure out what to eat and when.
Alcohol is the big one for me. I love to drink. My boyfriend and I brew beer. I adore wine and port and a good aged whiskey. I've been cutting way back. But it's hard. I don't know how sustainable it is, but I WANT this CRON magic so badly I am willing to sacrifice a bit for it.
Another big issue is exercise. I am sedentary by nature. I love to read and watch movies and surf the internet. I hate to move. I do bike and walk everywhere I go, but my "everywhere" is about a 3 mile radius so it's not that much. I am hoping to work in more exercise, but right now I'm taking it one step at a time, and my first step is figuring out the food.
I have no idea how many calories I should be eating. Right now, at about 1650, I am not very hungry though my cravings are still strong. I don't know if I am losing weight...I'm waiting for a scale I ordered to arrive. I think I'm already feeling a bit better from the increase in protein, decrease in carbs. Here's my food for today so far:
Breakfast:
Barbara's Bakery Shredded Oats, 1 serving
Dannon Activa Yogurt low fat blueberry, 1 serving
Milk, 2%, 0.25 cup
Lunch:
A big salad made of the following:
1 hardboiled egg
Kraft Light Done Right Salad Dressing, Zesty Italian, 2 Tbspn
cous cous, .25 cup
Flax Seed Meal (ground flax), 1 tbsp
Arugula, 2 cups
Kraft 2% cheddar block cheese, 1 oz
Beets, boiled, 75 grams
Cucumber (with peel), 75 grams
Green Peppers (bell peppers), 28 grams
Custom Food Onions, raw, 75 grams
Snack:
1 orange
3 cups herbal tea
1 cup black tea
0.25 cup 2% milk
1 tsp sugar
1 tbsp honey
10 almonds
As you can see, there's still a lot of room for work. I haven't quite kicked the sweet-tooth, and I'm using some prepared foods. But I'm learning. Dinner should be:
450 grams of kale, steamed in water
And a little "bake" made of
1 serving morningstar veggie crumbles
1 oz 2% cheddar
1 plum tomato
Green Peppers (bell peppers), 20 grams
Onions, raw, 75 grams (cooked in one tbsp evoo)
Cremini mushrooms 45 grams
.25 cup All Whites Egg Whites with White Cheddar (grr, I meant to get plain but grabbed the wrong carton.)
Which will bring me to right about 1400
How does that sound? I also have some beautiful port, and I am thinking of indulging in a glass of that tonight, since it's St. Patty's day, after all.
Anyway, thanks for reading! It is great to be here.
PS: The bake turned out to seem HUGE so I am only eating 1/2 of it and will save the other 1/2 till tomorrow. Which I guess means I need to crunch some numbers or something. But WOW is the port tasty!
Well for starters, I'm a 24 year old, 5'9, (well, 5'8.75, but that sounds dumb) 180 lb woman. I've been interested in CRON for months, lurking on blogs and reading articles, but have finally gotten up the courage to plunge in. The first step was signing up for www.sparkpeople.com, which introduced me to the reality of counting calories. Before depression and the weight-causing drugs, and before hormonal birth control, I could eat any and all I wanted and hang around 130 lbs, so I am guessing that's about my set-point. A few weeks ago I stepped on the scale at the Dr's office and saw a number I had never seen before. Until recently, my highest weight ever had been in the 160's. But over the past year, with the aforementioned drugs, I have slowly and steadily put on over 40 lbs, with no sign of an upper-limit plateau, and I was terrified. To make things worse, I am ALWAYS sick. Always the first one down, always the last to recover. Migraines, chronic sinus problems, flus, colds, stomach viruses. You name it, I've probably had it a dozen times. And I'm SO TIRED ALL THE TIME. It's terrible. I can sleep for 12 hours and wake up hardly able to drag myself out of bed.
I decided that it had to stop. I signed up for sparkpeople, and it gives me a calorie range of 1200-1550. I'm still going over that by a bit, averaging around 1650 a day over the course of the last week. But I've already made some huge changes. I am mostly vegetarian, though I will eat seafood, and I was suffering from fat-vegetarian syndrome. Pasta and cheese, bread and cheese, cous-cous and cheese...I was actually getting a good percentage of fat, but my carbs were sky-high and my protein VERY low. So now I am eating much better...lots of green things, a fair amount of dairy and tuna and almonds, etc. But it's hard to figure out how MUCH I should be eating. I am very tall, but I have a lot of fat to burn. I'm not sure about the life-extension stuff. I just want to feel better, and lose this weight without yo-yo dieting.
I am taking this slow, because I'm a little scared of it. It seems impossible that I could really lose all this weight and not be exhausted and hungry all the time. I'm frightened of becoming obsessive and lapsing into bad eating-disordered habits of the past. I'm afraid that it will ruin my metabolism and I'll end up having to eat only 800 cals a day just to avoid weight gain. Most of all I'm scared that it won't work. I'm worried about a lot of things, but all the blogs give me hope. You can't all be wrong! You all sound so together and happy and fit.
SO.
I bought a food scale today. Had a minor panic-attack at the store, but walked out with it anyhow. I am not ready for the CRON-o-meter though I know it is just a matter of time. Sparkpeople gives me a general breakdown of my most important nutrients. I'm certainly not at 100% but I am edging closer as I figure out what to eat and when.
Alcohol is the big one for me. I love to drink. My boyfriend and I brew beer. I adore wine and port and a good aged whiskey. I've been cutting way back. But it's hard. I don't know how sustainable it is, but I WANT this CRON magic so badly I am willing to sacrifice a bit for it.
Another big issue is exercise. I am sedentary by nature. I love to read and watch movies and surf the internet. I hate to move. I do bike and walk everywhere I go, but my "everywhere" is about a 3 mile radius so it's not that much. I am hoping to work in more exercise, but right now I'm taking it one step at a time, and my first step is figuring out the food.
I have no idea how many calories I should be eating. Right now, at about 1650, I am not very hungry though my cravings are still strong. I don't know if I am losing weight...I'm waiting for a scale I ordered to arrive. I think I'm already feeling a bit better from the increase in protein, decrease in carbs. Here's my food for today so far:
Breakfast:
Barbara's Bakery Shredded Oats, 1 serving
Dannon Activa Yogurt low fat blueberry, 1 serving
Milk, 2%, 0.25 cup
Lunch:
A big salad made of the following:
1 hardboiled egg
Kraft Light Done Right Salad Dressing, Zesty Italian, 2 Tbspn
cous cous, .25 cup
Flax Seed Meal (ground flax), 1 tbsp
Arugula, 2 cups
Kraft 2% cheddar block cheese, 1 oz
Beets, boiled, 75 grams
Cucumber (with peel), 75 grams
Green Peppers (bell peppers), 28 grams
Custom Food Onions, raw, 75 grams
Snack:
1 orange
3 cups herbal tea
1 cup black tea
0.25 cup 2% milk
1 tsp sugar
1 tbsp honey
10 almonds
As you can see, there's still a lot of room for work. I haven't quite kicked the sweet-tooth, and I'm using some prepared foods. But I'm learning. Dinner should be:
450 grams of kale, steamed in water
And a little "bake" made of
1 serving morningstar veggie crumbles
1 oz 2% cheddar
1 plum tomato
Green Peppers (bell peppers), 20 grams
Onions, raw, 75 grams (cooked in one tbsp evoo)
Cremini mushrooms 45 grams
.25 cup All Whites Egg Whites with White Cheddar (grr, I meant to get plain but grabbed the wrong carton.)
Which will bring me to right about 1400
How does that sound? I also have some beautiful port, and I am thinking of indulging in a glass of that tonight, since it's St. Patty's day, after all.
Anyway, thanks for reading! It is great to be here.
PS: The bake turned out to seem HUGE so I am only eating 1/2 of it and will save the other 1/2 till tomorrow. Which I guess means I need to crunch some numbers or something. But WOW is the port tasty!
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