CALORIES EVERYWHERE.

Okay guys, get this. Last night I was walking home from school and happened to look up at the marquee of the local movie theatre. I thought: "I wonder how many calories are in Pan's Labyrinth?"

Uh.

So! Today, planned out in advance, went pretty well! First of all, I woke up, by myself, at 7am! This might not sound like much, but I am a seriously fatigued person. I will go to bed at 11 and wake up at 11 (with an alarm) and feel like shit for the rest of the day, longing to go back to bed. I didn't get OUT of bed at 7, but I was pleasantly alert and I did some homework in bed and then took a little nap. And then got out of bed for real at 10am. I know it doesn't sound like much, but for me, it's big. I did have a little crash in the middle of the afternoon. I don't have egg whites at my house right now (left them at the boyfriend's--it's hard to CR between two households!) so my "protein" breakfast was:

1 cup nonfat vanilla yogurt
2 tbsp high protein almond granola sprinkled on top
32 oz herbal tea
1 tbsp honey

Then lunch was a big old salad
3 cups of spinach
0.5 cup mushrooms (plain old white kind)
2 tbsp sunflower seeds
1 cup chickpeas
2.8 oz tuna
and a huge splash of balsamic. It turned out to be more than I needed but I am not used to dressing such huge salads and I was afraid of having to choke down lots of dry spinach.

I ended up having an unscheduled snack of a fat-free latte with sugar-free vanilla syrup and a tiny dark chocolate truffle. I have no idea how many calories there. I just counted the milk in CoM but I had some calorie room for playing and it felt good to sip and nibble over a new book. And the skim brought my protein up, too!

Dinner was
5 celery sticks
150 g broccoli (that's a lot more broccoli than you'd think. I'm glad I weighed it because I'd estimated the amount as more than double the weight)
170g baby carrots
7 tbsp hummus
1 whole boiled egg

Ta da!:

General (97%)
Energy 1544.3 kcal 119% (maybe + 70 for chocolate? So, 1614.3?)
Protein 96.9 g 99%
Carbs 209.4 g 135%
Fiber 32.6 g 131%
Fat 39.9 g 93%
Water 2454.4 g 91%

Vitamins (89%)
Vitamin A 33912.1 IU 1454%
Folate 730.8 µg 183%
B1 (Thiamine) 1.1 mg 98%
B2 (Riboflavin) 2.4 mg 218%
B3 (Niacin) 12.4 mg 89%
B5 (Pantothenic Acid) 7.2 mg 144%
B6 (Pyridoxine) 2.8 mg 215%
B12 (Cyanocobalamin) 4.7 µg 196%
Vitamin C 183.1 mg 244%
Vitamin D 6.3 IU 3%
Vitamin E 12.5 mg 83%
Vitamin K 634.9 µg 705%

Minerals (98%)
Calcium 1554.5 mg 155%
Copper 2.2 mg 245%
Iron 15.6 mg 87%
Magnesium 485.0 mg 156%
Manganese 5.5 mg 306%
Phosphorus 2121.6 mg 303%
Potassium 4331.4 mg 92%
Selenium 137.4 µg 250%
Sodium 2447.8 mg 163%
Zinc 13.4 mg 167%

Lipids (80%)
Saturated 8.1 g 40%
Omega-3 1.2 g 111%
Omega-6 9.8 g 89%
Cholesterol 268.4 mg 89%

I think that was pretty good for a newbie effort! After all, this is my first week of real tracking. From what I see on other people's blogs, it seems pretty normal to go way high on the A and K. What about these guys? Manganese 5.5 mg 306% Phosphorus 2121.6 mg 303% Are those okay?

I am already resisting the urge to go lower. I need a couple of weeks to see if I am losing weight, and if so, how fast. My new scale arrived (I'd been using the sweet lying one at my BF's house) and it looks like I've lost 4 lbs, not 10, which makes more sense but is still a little sad. I have about 60 to lose if I'm ever going to get below set-point. Anyway, it will take time, and I know I have to go s-l-o-w.

I have decided to try to be nice to my fat while it's here. I've been squirming in my skin for months, staring at my rounded belly and breasts and hips, grabbing and pinching and sighing. But the fat is soft and smooth and if I do things right, I won't have it for long. This is not to say I'll miss it. I absolutely will not. But instead of straining towards that long lean lovely me that I know will show up one day if I keep it up, maybe I'll try to like my body as it goes through the stages.

I don't know if it's possible. It seems like a radical idea. And I am still kind of grossed out when I have to button my buddah belly into size 14 jeans. (How did I ever get here?) But maybe it's an experiment.