Okay, so that didn't work.
I am not CoMing today. I am just out for the day. I am having a screwed up emotional time. I need to think about the interface of nutrition, CRON, mental illness and psych drugs. I'm a PTSD person and the past three days have been full of panic attacks and crying jags. I could really use some of that CRON zen.
I do not seem to be losing any weight, BUT.
I have these pants. They were my first "fat pants" and I lamented much over their buying. I lamented even more their passing, when I could no longer pull them over my butt.
AND now I can pull them up and button them. They are not very becoming, or comfortable, but THEY GO ON MY ASS.
So this is good. Not good:
Food:
About a handful of trail mix with cranberries, almonds and cashews.
2 cups of tea with milk and sugar.
5 little cookies of some kind of meringue type at church.
4 fig newtons (see church)
2 100 calorie pudding cups.
2 squares of dark chocolate.
Oh yeah, depression eating.
For dinner I think I will eat a 1/2 cup of brown rice with this tomato concoction with black beans and corn. I put the recipe into CoM and it's pretty good on nutrition and stuff but I'm too disgruntled to deal with it. Tomorrow I will try April's detox diet.
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Okay, okay-- please learn from my many past mistakes: put today into COM. It is going to help you in the future when you go back to analyze your eating patterns. For a long time I didn't log my food for my "bad " days and I seriously regret that. A lot of times you're going to have to do a lot of substitutions and guess work on COM (since church cookies don't show up there!) but just do your best and log it. Also, don't feel so down. Most of us have been there, and worse!
hang in there kiddo. sending you HUMUNGO hugs!!!
-J
Probably the decision to fast set you up for this day. Hang in there though. I agree with Hilary, log it all in no matter what..When you do an average report for the month, you'll be so happy you did, no matter how bad it is. It does help with understanding what triggers these kinds of days and how to avoid them in the future. Hormones, TOM, drinking, can all trigger SAD (in more ways than on) food days. it just helps to arm yourself with all your tools to learn how to deal with them. Good for you for blogging about it as well. I know it helps me to feel better. No excuses, just pure and simple it's out there and now it's in the past. Let it go and here's hoping for a better day today!
D
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